Chasing After Heaven

When did he started to feel this emotion?

An emotion so obscured from his life. An emotion he neve wished to learn about nor to hear about. Yet here he is, enduring this ravenous pain raging in his chest.

He had been in over all kinds of painful tortures, enduring all those physical pain with his eyes staring back at his tormentors, mocking them as they inflict more pain on his batttered body.

Yet why does this nonvisble pain can do so much to him?

Why does he feel so weak and helpless with this mere emotion?

What kind of power does this emotion posses?

How?

He was raised in brutality and pure instinct. He was never cared for, nor tended to. He endured all his wounds, fatal or not, he made it through all those ailments he had been through, yet how come such pathetic emotion can do so much damage to him?

He clearly does not have the answer for these questions, but it is clear to him that only her has the power to heal it.

Yet did he just cast her away to the perils of her own land?

Did he just broken off all his ties with her and vowed to forget that measly woman?

For all she did brought him are mishaps and annoyance.

Yet, despite that, he felt he finally belonged.

And although he refused to admit it, his chest began to feel so heavy while his heart pounded loudly in his ears as he watched her back disappear from his sight. He was really happy for her now that she had returned from where she came from. Back to those luxuries and comfort.

Away from his world.

But why was she crying? Why was she begging for him?

He didnt pay heed to her cries and watched her disappear. After all, this was for her own good. This is for the better.

If that is so, then why is he running back to her?

Why is he so desperate to see her again, to hear her voice, and feel her warmth?

What is this overwhelming urge to take her away from her home again?

Why is he chasing after something he had deemed insignificant in his life?

Maybe, he just wants tto find the real meaning of this word 'happiness'

"Do you know what happiness is?"